2012-03-20

Hottie of the week #1












it's the same person, if you didn't know.
sorry christian, i'll never let you down. you're always my n1, but there's other guys that's totally hot.
this is a model from brasil, HOT RIGHT?!

2012-03-11

Hey y'all..


Just wanted to share this video with all of you.
I made it for Christian, but I was thinking that you might wanna check it out?
Really means alot if you watch it & tweet Christian the link.

Thanks..

- I think about ya, C.

2012-03-09

i'm not blonde...

I'm not blonde & Christian likes blonde girls so.. He doesn't like me. Omgggg.. Kill me.


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2012-03-02

Goodnight

Just wanted to say goodnight.

~ thinking about u christian.


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Justin Bieber turned 18 yesterday so..

All grown up.

"Looking to the sky, I will achieve on my knees, I will always believe."

#Believe #LiveMyLife #AlwaysKidrauhl #Realdeal

Happy birthday.


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2012-02-24

If only..

If only I could see, that you'll never be with me.. I want you but I can't have you, Christian.


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2012-02-21

Christian..

give me a chance to tell you everything. add my skype: mariell1337

Thankyou


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2012-02-13

True


There's seriously nobody that can bring a real smile on my face. Except you. You make my real smile wanna show. I would do anything to get to see you, it would be awesome. I would thank you like 100 times.

I would go to ATL & search for your house, but I don't have money enough and my mom would never let me go there.. Well, anyways I wish you a happy Valentine's day. You're my valentine. Thank you.

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2012-02-12

ONE THING

When i'm looking at you, I can't ever be brave cause you make my heart race. You keep making me weak, yeah frozen and can't breath. I'm dying just to make you say that I need you here with me now cause you got that one thing. Get out, get out, get out of my head fall into my arms instead. I don't, I don't, don't know what it is but I need that one thing and you got that one thing.


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2012-02-11

Valentine.

This extremly sexy man will be my Valentine and he doesn't even know about it. Well, you'll always be my Valentine. Every year. Til' the day I die. Thanku.


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My mum..

This is my mother. She felt like crap when everyone bullied me. She stayed home from work just because she was so sad and felt bad. I know she isn't perfect. Nobody is. But she is perfect to me. Yeah, she can be a real pain in the ass sometimes but she's always there for me. I've seen her cry ONE time, and it was because of me.. I don't think that's okay.. I'm sorry mummy..


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Love u

If perfect's what you're searching for then just stay the same. So don't even bother asking if you look okay, you know I'll say - When I see your face, there's not a thing that I would change, cause you're amazing just the way you are. And when you smile, the whole world stops and stares for a while cause boy, you're amazing. Just the way you are.


God Bless You Christian Beadles.


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Christian.

You make me smile, even when it hurts the most.


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i'm in love

I'm in love with a fairytale, even though it hurts.

I don't care if I lose my mind, cause i'm already cursed. Christian<3


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2012-02-10

Feeling down

I feel so sad... I don't know why.. But imma go watch my love's videos and watch that gorgeous smile so he can make me smile even though i'm sad.


Thank you so much. I'm thanking you everyday. Thank you for keeping me alive with that smile of yours. You saved me. <3


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2012-02-09

What Christian means to me?

He means alot. He is a big part of my life. He changed my life and he'll always be a role model to me. Yeah, he doesn't know I exist. But i'll do whatever it takes to make him read my blog so he understands how much he really means to me. I'm gonna meet you one day, wonderful u. The first thing i'm gonna do is hug you. No words, just tears, hug and a big thank you. Thank you for helping me without knowing it. I love you.


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2012-02-08

My story. Please read.

Hey guys. So, uhm.. When i'm not uploading pictures in my updates, i'm blogging from my phone.. And my phone don't want to upload my pictures. But everytime i'm blogging from a computer, there'll come pictures. I promise!

Okay, so. Helloooo. How are u guys? I hope you're great. I am. But I have a headache.. Poor me. Haha, just kidding.

My story about how I found Christian Beadles:

Once upon a time, I was chillin around on YouTube.. Watchin some random peep's videos. Hmm.. Wow, cute guy. *Click* Oww, he's funny. Hot. Then ------------> I saw his smile..

I will never be able to describe that wonderful moment. I've never felt anything like that before. Christian Beadles, i'm in love with you. That smile can light up all my days when they're black as the night sky. Then I started to search "Christian Beadles" on Facebook and there were like 13456765432095746534 Christian Beadles's!? And I was like whaaat. o.O
Then, I noticed he was kind of a celibrity. I searched "Christian Beadles" on Google & on weheartit.com .. Wow, lots of pictures. I made a Twitter account (http://twitter.com/mariellofficial) and followed my lovely Christian. He followed me back, but at first, I didn't notice. Then I saw "@littlecbeadles follows you" Wow, that's good. My love is following me. How great isn't that, aight? ;)

Since that day i've watched Christian's videos on YouTube/Keek almost everyday. Not everyday, cause i'm not obsessed. He's normal too, even though he's famous. He should be treated like everyone else, but.. That smile. He made the stars shine like never before. He made my days so much brighter.

I was bullied, still am. But not so much anymore. Christian Beadles helped me through it. And he doesn't even know about it. I hope he'll read this sometime, so you can read my story and understand how thankful I really am.
People called me pig, etc. because my nose is kinda up (?) -i'm from sweden, have a lil problems with my english ;)-

 I had almost the whole school against me. My best friend left me. I was all alone in school. I never told anyone how hurted I really was. I suffered. At day, I was sad.. Didn't talk to anyone. Just.. sad. At night, I watched Christian Beadles's videos. He made me smile, when no one else did. Thank you so much for that. Then, the worst thing happend. My computer broke. I didn't have a computer, oh my gosh what am I gonna do?!

So, I couldn't watch his videos. At day, I was sad.. Didn't talk to anyone. Just.. sad. At night, I was sad.. Didn't talk to anyone. Just.. sad. After a while, I started writing down every little detail about what people said about me, then I read it, over and over and over again. At last, I believed what they said. I was a pig. And they wanted to kill me. Yes, they said they were going to kill me because I was ugly.

 I started to get some weird phone calls, I answered "hello..?" and the only thing they did were laugh or making pig noices. I just hung up.
So, I believed what they said about me. I started writing long texts about how much I wanted to die. I wanted to die. All my friends had left me.. I was all by myself. No one cared. After 6 months, I had over 300 papers where I had wrote down everything. And me comitting suicide. Yep, that was my plan. Suicide. Now when I think about it, I just think it's pathetic. One time, at night my mom found me crying at my room. I told her everything.. I couldn't handle life anymore.. I couldn't handle anything. Once in a while (like 1 time in month) I could sit by my mom's computer, guess what I did? Watch Christian's videos. He made me smile. Even though I wanted to die. He has always made me smile. He's my saviour in every situation. Thank you. (again..)

After the weekend, I really didn't wanna go to school so I stayed home. Mom stayed home with me. I watched TV and mom were downstairs.. Then I walked downstairs and I saw my mom cry.. (she never cries, NEVER!!) I asked why.. She said: "It's not easy for me as a mother to know what people's doing to you.."
Then I said: "If it's not easy for you, then think about how it is for me.." She said: "I can't believe you've handled this for so long.. You're so strong honey!" Then I started to cry.. And we hugged.



After 3 days, I walked to school. My teacher had noticed that I wasn't ok, so she sent me to a girl named Madeleine to talk. I was there 3 times, then the police came to my school. They talked to everyone that bullied me. Some of them apoligized, some didn't.
Now, 1 year after everything. I can't believe I handled everything. I really noticed that i'm strong. "What doesn't kills you, makes you stronger" It almost killed me, but it didn't. It made me stronger. I do notice that i'm stronger. I really do. I am strong.


This is to Christian Beadles (if you're even reading this..)
Thank you so so so much for making me smile when no one else did. Thank you for keeping my hope up. Thank you for having that gorgeous smile, that made me fly without wings. Thank you for existing. You really changed my life! Believe it or not, but you are my angel. My saviour in every situation.
Thank you. God bless you.

All my blessings is for you. My love.
/ Mariell Adams.


Contact: mariellofficial@hotmail.com 
Keek: http://keek.com/mariellSWAG
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Like-Page: http://www.facebook.com/?ref=logo#!/pages/Mariell-Gustafsson/207210209350935
YouTube channel: http://youtube.com/user/malleohyeah
Twitter:
http://twitter.com/mariellofficial

THANK YOU FOR READING. MEANS ALOT. LOVE LOVE LOVE you.

Angel

Christian Beadles is my angel. He makes me happy when i'm sad. When i'm happy, he makes me happier. He's my saviour in every situation. Thank you for that.


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